I have been SO tired lately! This rotation is kicking my butt. We have to do all these stupid assignments and the cardiologists are making me drive all over the city to follow them around. Monday I had to drive 3 HOURS each way to Ft. Hood and tomorrow I have to go to two hospitals to sit and listen to an EKG talk that I've already heard, ugh! I have no energy, I'm tired of this rotation, and I'm tired of residency. Maybe I shouldn't have been a doctor.
Wow, I have really been working hard this rotation! But I've been learning a LOT, and it will help me in the long run. It's a tough rotation for sure, with all these tests and assignments. But I've passed everything so far and it's a learning process, even if it is painful at times. What a privilege that I get to work with these cardiologists, who are renowned in their field. I get one-on-one teaching with them and I see some great cases by going to all these hospitals. And even though I've heard the EKG talk before, I am certainly not an expert so I'm sure I'll learn something tomorrow. Residency is tiring - I knew that going into it. But I trust that this is where I'm meant to be, and God will give me rest and the strength I need to do this.
If only I could think positively all the time. But it feels so unnatural and phony. I suppose if I make a conscious effort to change my thoughts like that, then over time it will happen more and more naturally. Well that's it for today. Off to work! :)